Positive Pregnancy Test

On May 4th of this year my husband, my two oldest sons, and I were at our state's homeschool convention. A month or so earlier, a friend of mine told me that Amazon carried 25 pregnancy tests for $5. I had no intention of getting pregnant, in fact, after the rupture we were in a time of prayer and were even using non-hormonal methods to prevent pregnancy. However, I do love pregnancy tests and the idea of being able to use them willy-nilly without it being a financial burden was just too exciting to pass up. So, I purchased a bag of 25.

The week before the state convention, I had been using a test every day (okay, sometimes twice a day) because I had missed my period. Truly, this wasn't really concerning, because I was only four months postpartum, and I'm never regular anyway. That week, a test showed up with a very, very faint line. So faint that my husband said it wasn't real. I tested for a few days and the line remained. I decided to stop testing for a bit to see if it would darken.

As I packed for our trip to the homeschool convention, I decided to throw a few tests in my bag. You know, just in case.

The first morning that we were at the hotel, I used the test and then forgot about it on the bathroom sink. The maid was the only one who knew the results of that one. The second test I used that night, but it was dud, as the control line didn't even show up. I pushed the thought out of my head. The next morning, I took another test and it was a very dark, very clear positive. I was so excited. I just couldn't believe it.

The Lord had chosen to give me another child, even after my doctor initially told us to stop having children. He gave us another child without me having to use progesterone cream, which I had used in the last four conceptions. He even gave us another child while we were trying to avoid it. WOW! I was on cloud nine for the rest of the conference.

Being at a Christian homeschool conference, there were lots of large families around. I just wanted to shout, "Hey, we're having our seventh baby!" These people would be happy for us, after all they were crazy just like we were. There would be no condemnation or worry at the homeschool conference. The Lord really blessed me with the experience of being there when I finally saw that clearly positive pregnancy test. The weekend was such an amazing time, and I loved watching the other moms of many, and wondering what our family would be like in nine months.

Those early days were very good, and I thank the Lord for that. It didn't occur to me to be afraid until a bit later. Then the tears wouldn't stop flowing, and my husband couldn't shake the feeling that he had truly put my life and my mental health at risk, simply by doing what married people do.

The very bad days are mostly over, and the excitement is beginning to return. We will find out the gender of this amazing blessing in 11 days, and I just can't wait. I praise the Lord for this pregnancy, even when I'm scared, even when I'm tired, and even when the thought of going into another operating room simply overwhelms me. He is good, and He will not leave nor forsake me.