Most days I'm fine. At least until recently. I had pushed the pregnancy to the back of my mind and had avoided thinking of the impending c-section. However, next week I have two OB appointments. This, of course, has brought all those fearful thoughts back to my mind, and has left a little cloud hovering over me most of the time.I know that no one likes an Eyore-type person. And, if my faith was stronger I'd probably be
handling this so much better.
Next week I will meet with my current OB, whose office is two hours away. I switched to him in the 36 week of my fifth pregnancy. I went to him so that I could have a chance to VBA3C. That birth went amazingly. It was truly wonderful. it.
I'll also see a local OB to decide if I want to change care providers. I don't want to see someone new. I hate having to form a relationship with a doctor. My needs have changed from needing a doctor who supports and provides intervention-free births to needing a good surgeon. This is so hard for me. I don't want a doctor who practices obstetrics like so many do. But, I'm not sure that I want to travel 2 hours to a hospital that I don't like to deliver a planned c-section, even if I do love my current doc.
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